My voice is the only true act of honesty that can give a meaning to this life, which every day tries to tear our vocal strings out of fear of saying, because to say means to express and to express means to feel. It is true: it takes courage to say. It takes courage to stop desiring silence and loneliness.
I promised myself that I would seek the meaning of all my silences, all of my unspoken words. I tried to give shape and color. It was difficult, but after parole, parole, and parole, maybe, I did it.
I did it one Sunday morning as I was coming home from the gym, walking through the park I pass by each day to go to class, while sending an endless voice message to a beloved friend. I found the answer in my daily life, in the simplicity of everyday life.
Maybe I’m wrong, but my answer is simple: we talk because it's beautiful. Because we also grasp beauty in frustration, and because in a society that is constantly obsessed with effectiveness and frightened by failure, talking, and communicating is a way to admit that everything is fine, that you are all right. As in the myth of Sisyphus, we keep pushing our rock on the slope of a mountain, hoping naively, though with all the innocent purity that we have, that we will eventually do it. That we will eventually be happy. To hope this happiness means to accept the absurdity of our own lives. To embrace your voice while you’re talking to me, even if we don’t understand each other.
One must imagine Sisyphus happy.
In the end, you will understand, you will know what I'm trying to say to you, and I will understand what you're saying – in the end we'll meet, or rather, we're going to meet. Parole, dopo parole, dopo parole (words, after words, after words). But the rock keeps rolling back, falling on us, crushing us. Once again you misunderstood me, once again I don't know. The weight of the stone takes breath. But – and in this ‘but’ lies the essence of life – we rise up punctually and continue. We know that under the weight there is only death. So, let's start pushing the rock again, with all the effort it entails. Every time a little more conscious, yet unstoppable. There is no fundamental reason why this should not be the case. The optimism of the Will.
One should always talk, give the most beautiful form possible to thought, and make plentiful and sensitive use of this strange and artificial system of symbols, of the parola, which is everything and nothing, but it is all that we have at our disposal. Even if talking means lying, even if – and indeed precisely because – it is not possible to grasp the real. Although no one will ever understand.
One should always respect all kinds of language and pay attention to the words that make up our dialogue. So, take the time to choose them carefully and then have fun as you run here and there with the word. While you run into each other without ever reaching, your thoughts and parole will eventually become closer and closer. To the point that one should learn to recognize and love the limits of our way of expressing ourselves. So also, to learn to be silent, not to say a word when it is (un?)necessary, to wait, to look at ourselves, to listen, to interpret us, to understand us. And then get lost in limbo. Surrender to the idea that you will never be able to know the content of my thought and learn to appreciate the interpretation you give instead of fighting it. Embrace frustration.
Then in the inevitable distance between you and me there will be no more emptiness, but only wonder.
“ECCO IL MIO DESTINO, PARLARTI, PARLARTI COME LA PRIMA VOLTA”
CHE COSA SEI? PAROLE, PAROLE, PAROLE
PAROLE, PAROLE, PAROLE, PAROLE, PAROLE,
SOLTANTO PAROLE, PAROLE TRA NOI”